If you follow me on Instagram, Twitter, or Facebook you've seen my recent pictures series, #KaylaCountsTilChristmas2015, and probably concluded that I was getting pretty impatient to get home. If you came to that conclusion, you would be 100% correct. Don't get me wrong, I love being independent. I love grocery shopping, planning my schedule and figuring out myself in a new city but I don't think anything will ever beat being in the comfort of my home. I don't even mean my physical home because my room is still barren which is weird but just being in the comfort, laughter and love of my family and friends. Being in a place that I can walk down the street and find memories or knowing that I'll walk in my door and be greeted by my sweet dog. Being home for nine days and the new year coming up (which by the way, I would like time to stop for me to catch up please and thank you) I've been thinking about a lot.
First of all, this year is ending in ways I could never imagine. If you would have told me in January that I would be in Austin, Texas dancing with a company come December I probably would have looked at you like you had three heads. Mostly because I had no idea where I would be nor if I would even make it through my auditions that spring. If you would have told me that I would walk through an emotionally hard summer but come out more myself I probably would have laughed in your face. If you would have told me that my friendships would grow immensely between the last month of high school and Christmas I wouldn't believe you because I didn't know how much deeper my friendships could go. I look back and I realize that in January of 2015, I was a different girl than I am today writing this. I mean yes, I am still the passionate, loving, gullible, light-hearted, perfectionist that I always have been but I have also discovered this year that I am an independent, courageous, persistent, valuable child of God. I look back to all that has happened this year: getting my license, becoming a legal adult, graduating high school, experiencing heartbreak, moving to a new city, rekindling friendships, performing in a professional Nutcracker and then returning home I can't help but see a year full of growth. This year has arguably thrown me some of the greatest valleys but I look back and I'm in awe of all the work God did in my life.
In a two days it will be a new year and in three days I will be returning to Austin and as much as I'm dreading another year of growing up, I also look at this upcoming year full of hope. If God could take both big and small moments in 2015 and mold me into who I am today, writing this, what will 2016 hold? I can only imagine and I can only anticipate. There most likely will be valleys but I look forward to them because if 2016 is anything like 2015, I know I will gain more love for my family and friends, more confidence in myself and my faith, and I will delight even more in my Savior, whatever he may walk me through.
So yes, this title was inspired by an Adele song but honestly, it's so true. I sit here on the closing side of 2015 so humbled, so grateful and so in awe because never ever did I expect that this side would taste sweeter than the beginning.
First of all, this year is ending in ways I could never imagine. If you would have told me in January that I would be in Austin, Texas dancing with a company come December I probably would have looked at you like you had three heads. Mostly because I had no idea where I would be nor if I would even make it through my auditions that spring. If you would have told me that I would walk through an emotionally hard summer but come out more myself I probably would have laughed in your face. If you would have told me that my friendships would grow immensely between the last month of high school and Christmas I wouldn't believe you because I didn't know how much deeper my friendships could go. I look back and I realize that in January of 2015, I was a different girl than I am today writing this. I mean yes, I am still the passionate, loving, gullible, light-hearted, perfectionist that I always have been but I have also discovered this year that I am an independent, courageous, persistent, valuable child of God. I look back to all that has happened this year: getting my license, becoming a legal adult, graduating high school, experiencing heartbreak, moving to a new city, rekindling friendships, performing in a professional Nutcracker and then returning home I can't help but see a year full of growth. This year has arguably thrown me some of the greatest valleys but I look back and I'm in awe of all the work God did in my life.
In a two days it will be a new year and in three days I will be returning to Austin and as much as I'm dreading another year of growing up, I also look at this upcoming year full of hope. If God could take both big and small moments in 2015 and mold me into who I am today, writing this, what will 2016 hold? I can only imagine and I can only anticipate. There most likely will be valleys but I look forward to them because if 2016 is anything like 2015, I know I will gain more love for my family and friends, more confidence in myself and my faith, and I will delight even more in my Savior, whatever he may walk me through.
So yes, this title was inspired by an Adele song but honestly, it's so true. I sit here on the closing side of 2015 so humbled, so grateful and so in awe because never ever did I expect that this side would taste sweeter than the beginning.
Had to come back and read this again! You are so so wise beyond your years and such an inspiration to us all. So proud of you, Kayla! xo
ReplyDeleteSo much appreciation and love for you!! Thanks for being my go to girl! Xoxo back! ;)
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