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A Letter to Myself....

Dear Kayla,

I'm writing this letter because I hope you always remember today, your last day of being 18. What a glorious day it was, filled with love, friends and a reminder of one of the most beautiful sounds in life: laughter. Although it marked tomorrow being your first birthday away from home, it was a simple reminder of how you have been so graciously blessed moving down to Austin, Texas.

This year has brought a lot of growth between the highs and the lows. Highs like: getting your license, graduating high school, getting a trainee position at Ballet Austin, dancing in your first professional Nutcracker and of course, meeting all sorts of new, beautiful people. It also brought lows like: experiencing heartbreak, change in friendships, learning how to do life without your family all around the same table but through it all, life was still beautiful. A beautiful hike filled with God's never ending grace and mercy covering every mountain and every valley.

I'm not sure where you will be when you read this next but I do hope this: that you're still following your heart. It may be different that what your heart is following today, while you write this, but whatever God places on your heart, I hope you follow it passionately. I hope that you constantly look for the little blessing. Like how the low of your day today was eating too much cake. I hope you "dance like a pro" (shout out to dad), even if that doesn't necessarily mean your dancing. Most of all, I hope you remember how loved you are. Loved by others and loved by God. I hope you remember how humbled each birthday makes you feel because you are simply reminder of all the beautiful souls you are lucky to know.

19 is coming in just a short hour and a half but whatever comes this year, it will be wonderful. It might not seem good or praise worthy at the time, but whenever those times come I hope you remember days like today or even tomorrow. Life is coming quick, quicker than you probably want to admit, but life is also unfolding in ways you could never imagine each and every year.

So here's to this new year of life Kayla, one that is so unknown yet so peace-bringing. It's a glorious life you have and I hope you choose to remind yourself of that each and everyday this next year.

Here's to your journey, here's to your life and here's to this year.

Your humbled 18 year old self.



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